The woman pictures here is the worst kind of evil. While I was teaching a course on literacy and education one June evening my partner of three years decided to go to a dive bar. This Soviet bar fly with a ÒdeadlineÓ in mind for a baby was there gussied out. While they were eye fucking or whatever Òman hunting low life skillÓ she was employing that evening a man in the bar told her that my boyfriend was taken. Like she gave a fuck. Well soon after I went away for two weeks to visit my aunt who had advanced cancer. They got their fuck on while I was away. When I returned my boyfriend started coming home at 3am 4am after she had fallen to her sleeping pill she had been taking. This was about two weeks after we had signed a two year lease together. He would come into bed hug me kiss me make love to me and tell me he was Òout making money for us doing extra projects.Ó; This went on for about four more weeks while I died in agony until one evening I called him particularly upset and the worst sound I will ever hear in my life answered the phone. ÒIs this _____Õs girlfriend? He is in my bed. We had sex ten minutes ago. We are planning a family. SAY WHATTTTTTTTT My hear completely stopped. She came over to our apartment I guess to prove I really lived there and showed me photos of them drunk together at a bar. Great. I didnÕt think I was going to go on living at that point. She told me she *might* be pregnant. This is the man I stood by when he was at his worst. This is the man I did all I could do to build up getting him to explore the arts and poetry and his intellectual side. This was only the second man I had ever made love to and I was 26 when I met him. This is the man who from the day I met him asked me to be the mother of his children- we were building together. He never drank a drink in front of me. Maybe I was totally naive but I thought we were pure soulmates. I didnÕt care that there were things to be ironed out that was part of the journey. Well ok so he came home that night and I just looked him in the eyes. He walked out and walked back in about ten times. He came down to the bed and hugged me. He said he loved me and didnÕt want a family with anyone but me. He got in the shower and started crying. I left the next day after he said we would go away and figure everything out. Said he would never speak to her again. He called at least 8 times a day. We fought and went crazy for over six months. I thought he was coming back. He even spent an entire month with me. Then I found out this horrible little thing. SHE WAS PREGNANT! Now all babies are a blessing- I know- and especially one born from this kind of beginning must be an angel to God. But I lost so much of my personhood my life my will to live because of this woman. The man still contacts me EVERY SINGLE DAY still tries to court me had come to see me many times and tells me he cares. He said he made a big mistake leaving me and heÕs only still with her because of the baby until he can figure things out. He even came to my apartment the whole week she was in the hospital and stayed overnight. I donÕt know why this had to happen to me. I know my story is softer-seems softer- but I am not sure one individual could express the pain I have felt in the last year and a half in words. I know I am above this kind of thing but it feels good feels therapeutic to put this out in the universe. Ladies when someone is desperate for a baby they will believe anything destroy anything and never think about the lives they ruin in the process. Be safe out there. I always feel like I had to die so this baby could live.

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